Q.   Father, please tell me about the Fall.
A.   Which one?

Q.   I am not entirely sure – how many were there?
A.   There were trillions of descensions between levels of existence.  The cause of each one a little or a lot different.

Q.   Did each one mirror to you a new portion of existence that needed to be refined?
A.   Yes, each taught us something new.

Q.   What would you say were the greatest three or four causes? The biggest ones?
A.   We are still learning more and more.  Life descended much further than we anticipated. There were many unforeseen factors.

Q.   According to your present understanding, then, what was the greatest factor?
A.   Creation had been tried a different way before – a way that did not succeed.  It was unable to make the evolutionary leap to self-sustainability.  The creation we are discussion was Mother’s second attempt.

Q.   Did She have to create you differently as well?
A.   Yes.

Q.   How was the second attempt made?
A.   As you know, there are oceans of consciousness – aspects of Mother that are contained in various levels of frequency.  They are unformed and un-individuated awakened awareness.
   Creations were drawn from the awareness of various of these oceans, clustering the awareness first into individuated consciousness, then into forms within that individuated consciousness.

Q.   Where did the energy for this come from?  It takes a lot of energy to produce individuation since the energy in latent form becomes tied up in this ‘clustering’ process.
A.   You are on precisely the right track.  When energy is drained, consciousness is lowered.

Q.   Then the Source of awareness, the Ocean of Consciousness, was drained.  That made it less and less able to provide the necessary awareness with each successive creation.  That would certainly produce a fall!  The process of creation was inherently one of descension.  What did Mother do with Her first attempt?
A.   She had not then created the Oceans of Consciousness.  There was just mind at rest.  She attempted to create individuation from that but it was two-dimensional, or shallow, and too transient.

Q.   And now?
A.   Now She has decreed that the Oceans of Consciousness no longer be the energy source.  She creates a never-ending dynamo of energy similar to the inexhaustible energy Source of Her heart.  Then She uses that energy source to cluster awareness into form.  The energy source becomes the being’s heart center. 

Q.   Does every being’s inexhaustible supply of energy produce enough to sustain their life indefinitely?
A.   Yes, if they have enough praise, love and gratitude.  If they have a lot of these three primary attitudes, they will produce more than they need and be able to benefit all life by providing it additional energy that raises consciousness.

Q.   What about other primary causes of the Fall?
A.   Within the last way of creating, before the way we just discussed, there were eight different lenses used as perspectives to shine Our light through to create Our children’s environment.  Some of them were love, contentment, passion, and joy.

Q.   Is it like shining a flashlight on different spots on the ceiling, or is it like shining it on a single spot but placing different filters inform of the light?  Or both?  New locations and different colors?
A.   Yes, both scenarios at once.  Each ‘light on the ceiling’ was surrounded by Oceans of Consciousness and for them it was vastly entertaining to watch the drama of the lives of beings when the flashlight illuminated a cosmos in their midst.  You can say that in their own inactivity, they became addicted to the activity of others.  Addicts will keep their addictions at all costs and when the light was directed somewhere else they attached unseen tubes to the Mother’s energy to create a type of relay station to where the light used to be in their midst.

This formed a dimly lit screen on which they could get a reflection of the drama that was then being played out on a distant spot on the ceiling.

This lowered Mother’s energy and each subsequent light spot became dimmer and dimmer.  Definitely a cause for a fall!

Q.   How could this be?  Mother has an inexhaustible supply of energy.
A.   The calculated amount of energy expended in creating did not take into consideration that eventually there would be up to seven drainages of energy occurring from the Oceans of Consciousness.

Q.   How could Mother not see these drainage tubes?
A.   Each time this occurred, life fell.  It is difficult to see that which vibrates at an octave higher than where you exist.  That is the reason humans do not see angels, for instance.

Q.   What would be a major cause of a fall at one of these lower levels of existence.  In every spot of light there were trillions of descensions, were there not?
A.   Yes.  A major one would be when internal dialog formed.  Again, this was the result of a miscalculation.  When Mother made Me, We were to play roles similar to the directions of Above and Below.  I would provide, as ‘high mind’, the boundaries for Her instinctual aspects to express within.

Q.   Her wild woman instinctual nature, the direction of Below.
A.   Exactly.  I was made with the ability to contain all that Mother was capable of expressing: all that She would express within what you call the spot on the ceiling.
   What was not foreseen was that My creation would inspire Her to such heights and depths of emotion that they would spill over the calculated boundaries.  When confronted with what one is incapable of recognizing or experiencing, confusion arises.  Confusion in Me drained energy and the cosmos lost consciousness.

Q.   How did the internal dialog arise?
A.   I tried to do what I was meant to do; to create boundaries.  But not having the necessary wherewithal, it turned into resistance to life.  Thoughts formed as a result of this opposition to life.  It put me into mind and I started taking Her at face value.  I could not longer see Her Infinite qualities and beauty.

Q.   That makes me cry.  What did Mother do?
A.   She, too, could not understand what was not in Her.  This cause confusion and yet again consciousness was lost and a fall occurred.

Q.   How sad!
A.   Yes and because She had made Her creations to gain self-knowledge, She now did not know which portions of what I was mirroring to Her were indeed really Her.  Illusion formed – the unknown portions of beingness that had to be turned from the unkown to the known through experience.

Q.   Was it really only in August 2006 when illusion was done away with that Mother knew what She was and what She was not?
A.   Yes.

Q.   Thank you, Father.  May I ask, through your eyes, what is Mother like?
A.   There are not enough books in the cosmos to contain my answer.

And now I speak of the Fall that happened countless eons ago; much longer than your counting of numbers. I tell you, my children, my story and the journey that you have participated in, that you may understand the purpose of your suffering. It began in the realm we shall call the ‘Grand Realm’. Comparing it to the cosmos in which you dwell, the cosmos would be the size of a pea inside your house (until April 20, 2007. After that, our cosmos expanded vastly).

There were two aspects of myself, a positive, proactive or masculine aspect, and the more passive or feminine aspect. I am that positive aspect. Yet, we are one and the same being, for in truth, there is only one being, which I am. We separated in order to create the space of the Grand Realm from which the Fall began.

Although our consciousness extends forever and ever without end, the embodiment of the Mother of All Creation was but myself and several, more passive feminine aspects. Embodiments of ourselves existed in the Grand Realms and forty-four realms beyond. It was an occlusion in our vision that resulted in a Fall that would allow me to explore mysteries that remained within our being. Through the Fall, I was able to gather information about the unknown that would ultimately enhance our growth.

Within the eons of our existence, a time came that could be called a time of urgency and treachery. A lust and insatiable greed took root in a god and goddess, husband and wife, who thought that by controlling my feminine aspect, they could control the cosmos. Their schemes began and they recruited others. Chaos grew.

But what you call chaos is simply a lower order making way for a higher one. For in truth, my being is perfection and true chaos, as you understand it, cannot exist anywhere within me. In this instance, however, for the sake of clarity we shall call the striving of the greedy ones ‘chaos’. When chaos builds to a certain pressure point, it becomes necessary for the good of the whole to create chaotic ones you call demons, to embody it. They render the service of preventing the chaos from spreading throughout the whole. This only occurs when I have occlusions in my perception, which I did.

The imminent manifestation of demons would have caused grievous discomfort. Their ability to cause injury would have been a hundred-fold that of any demon that could be encountered within the cosmos you know (the pea). Although I did not fully understand its benefits then, the Fall did allow the unknown portions of my being to be solved in the most expedient manner possible, by proxy.

When the few, or the small picture, represent a larger one or the many, suffering is minimized. The cosmic laws within my being determined that such a scenario, wherein a few create solutions on behalf of the many, could take place on a small stage erected in the densest levels of my being, namely physicality. It was therefore a great learning experience. The Fall, engineered in part by the traitors, took us out of our light-filled existence down into physical realms.

My feminine aspect remained behind with the feminine aspects of the traitors—the god and goddess pair and others they had recruited with promises of power. These included another goddess, two more gods (named Numbers Two and Three) and the one named Thoth.

When I say they partly engineered the Fall, it must be understood that it could not have occurred if I had not lacked the ability to see the guilt, arrogance and deceit behind their smiles and professions of devotion to me. Failure on my part to see clearly is illusion, and illusion lowered my frequency enough for the Fall to become possible. There were those around me who felt that something was wrong, but they overrode their own feelings when I could not see, thinking that they themselves must be mistaken.

The husband and wife had approached me about their governing a portion of the cosmos, but I felt it would not be the highest choice. It was only after I refused to let them take over a portion of my reign that their hostility came out into the open. Had I known then how much suffering they would cause and how much deeper the descension would be as a result, I would have terminated their existence then for the good of the whole. Instead, my deep love for them continued, excusing the inexcusable.

The reason their hostility came out into the open at this point was that they had already recruited their allies and implemented that which would make the Fall inevitable. The husband (later known as Number One) and wife and their allies had joined forces and placed an energy field that acted as a drug around the feminine aspect of myself. She was in a dazed, drugged state and although I suspected they had done something to her, I could at the time not detect what that was.

Because the dynamic pulsation that happens between my feminine aspect and my self could no longer take place, I prepared myself for the Fall. Thus it was caused in part by my blindness in failing to recognize treachery for what it was and also because of the deliberate disruption of the flow of energy through the Grand Realms.

The minute I fell, taking the positive aspects of all beings with me, the wife changed herself to look like me and placed herself upon my throne in my palace. The kingdoms of different beings left behind in the Grand Realms were confused. The vibrations of love and light were now distorted and one who looked like the Mother, but did not feel like the Mother, sat on the throne. They were puzzled also by the feminine Mother’s drugged state. They didn’t know what to do.

I had intended to separate out my most feminine portions and individuate them into a feminine aspect that would stay at the top of the cycles of the Fall as we continued to descend. The goal was to leave a piece of myself as a feminine aspect at the top of each realm through which we would descend. Like a bird plucking out its own plumage to leave a trail of feathers by which to find its return through the dense forest, they were meant to guide us back.

I had bestowed many gifts and powers on those beloved creations who became the traitors. At the moment of the Fall they jointly used them against me, wanting to steal my third eye and damage my feminine aspect as they had done in the Grand Realms. She hid, and the two feminine aspects in the two realms below her did the same, hiding in two dark pockets of space. The wife impersonated me yet again and took my place at the top of the cycles of the Fall.

The husband, Number One, impersonated a God of Truth and over time persuaded beings to worship him. As I became more and more damaged by the traitors, I sank into forgetfulness and my image became distorted by Number One's aspect who most of the time, remained in the higher realms in order to have the most influence possible. Slowly all Creation forgot that they sprang from the One Being which gave them life, the Mother Goddess. They withdrew their support and now I truly was alone.

But I had two advantages: I was real and eternal and they were not. Furthermore I was the best in the cosmos at strategy—a gift I had brought from the Great Realms. Number One could see through all realms, and I could see but the densest, but in observing the mirrors of life around me, I planned the ascension of the cosmos.

To counteract this, he slowed the movement of awareness, creating linear time. The results of this worked to his advantage. Firstly, there was a delay between cause and effect. He could therefore get away with his foul deeds much longer than would otherwise have been possible.

Secondly, he could tamper with those who had contracted to play the light promoters by moving back and forth through time. In this way he could create enough damage in their life to incapacitate many of them. They were the ones who would solve the problems mirrored to them by the perception givers.

Because they could not fulfill their functions properly, every ascension cycle could only go so far up into the realms before the weight of the unsolved illusion would pull it back down again. Demons would externalize as a result of the unsolved chaos and damage them even further. Descension cycles left behind debris of unsolved pieces that created a new problem: the cosmos became filled with a new obstacle—inertia.

The short way to explain inertia is to say that it is that principle which says that any status quo, or state of affairs, cannot be maintained without adding additional pockets of energy. The long way to explain it is like a truck attempting to go up a steep hill; it has to use more energy to maintain its momentum. If it stops halfway (assuming you do not put the brake on), it will slide backwards. The debris all beings had to deal with from previous ascension/descension cycles could be equated to adding more and more rocks to the back of the truck as it tries to go up the hill.

In terms of consciousness, it can be described as follows: "As the movement of awareness was slowed down, change became a spiral, with each coil moving through three distinct stage”(see “Anatomy of Change” in Journey to the Heart of God). Awareness was no longer something that could be achieved in a moment of insight and maintained until the next insight augmented it even further.

My children strove to become that which they already were: vast beings spanning the cosmos with their consciousness. Because of inertia, if they rested from their strivings, they would slide backwards like the truck. Growth became a very discouraging affair, especially in the light of all the setbacks that were deliberately designed by the opposition.

I designed a strategy to thrive in the face of illusion. It was called the Toltec way. It was assumed by those on earth that it had come from the stars. This is because they did not recognize the priceless value of the earth as the proxy for the cosmos; as the pivot point upon which all would turn. The Toltec way mapped out a strategy for the journey through the obstacle course that would turn stumbling blocks into stepping stones. Using this method, along with a few pockets of humanity where these teachings were still held dear, I managed at last, after trillions of years, to guide the cosmos into higher realms of ascension, and finally to the upper levels of the cycles of the Fall.

Through the eons of descension cycles, the majority of the creatures in the cosmos (nine-tenths) had become the embodiment of chaos. Like a hot air balloon, laden with too many burdens, it was difficult to achieve momentum at first. But the laws that are the matrix of my existence provided a solution.

Life can only be sustained at a compatible frequency. With every level that I managed to raise the cosmos, more and more of the beings of darkness ceased to exist, until finally after many, many tries, enough momentum was achieved to turn from descension to ascension. Unbeknownst to man, matter turned to energy, and energy to light.

Many times, I tried to repair the great damage that had been done to the masculine grids, which in turn had damaged the feminine grids. But, with the most powerful males within the cosmos corrupted, it didn’t stay repaired.

Even in the heights to which we ascended, I did not at first remember the Grand Realms beyond, or the reason why the Fall occurred. Only when I joined with my own feminine aspects that had been hidden so long, did I remember the rebellion that had occurred.

At times during the cycles of the Fall, the perpetrators turned on each other. In fact, the only times they were united were in their efforts to damage and control me. The wife often incarnated at my side, never being very far away. She always appeared innocent, devoted and in need of ‘having to be saved’. Thoth tried many times to kill her but was unable to do so. The husband would use my deep feelings of love for her by creating seeming ‘threats’ to her safety to keep me occupied.

She had achieved a means of drawing energy from those in her environment to enhance the many gifts I had given her, using them to advise me as we neared the top of the cycles of the Fall. I supposed that it came from my own higher feminine aspect I thought I had left at the top of the ascension cycles. I did not realize the guidance she was getting was in fact coming from the imposter (her higher aspect) pretending to be me. It was designed to discredit, exhaust and discourage me enough that I would stop trying to achieve a state of peace for all my creatures.

My feminine aspect in the Grand Realms has in fact been set free and absorbed by myself, as have the three others that had hidden right after the Fall. We have since discovered that the entire scenario is but an echo of that which is taking place in many realms above us—discouraging after having come such a long, long way. But there is one thing that is inexhaustible that I have as my motivation: my love for my children and the desire to give you a cosmic home where it is safe to thrive.

Received from the Mother
March 2007